I finally switched my phone to this Razr V6 after using my nokia 6610i for what seems to be an eternity. A phone to complement my transition back to civillain world from ns. Its still 189 days to ORD but lets hope these days would fly by :)

2:33 AM
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The past two months have been eventful to say the least, filled with issues that I would have never be mentally prepeared to face. I just feel very guilty right now. Lost a loved one in my life, whom I've not been cherishing as much as I should all this while. I'll like to blame it on my work, my studies, my personal problems for the cause of this negligiance, but at the end of the day its just that I've done too little and left things a little too late all these times. Studies being put on hold due to a suspected condition of migraine but I doubt things are as simple as it seems.Looking forward to my follow-up appointment for a less vague diagnosis. Right now I can just say that I'm the most relieved person in the world, I've never imagined that I'll be so glad to get 7 extra duty. :)

6:06 AM
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Looks like I've just gotten older by a year.But its honestly been a bitter sweet year for me filled with lots of moments of despair and opportunities to mature and improve.With the following year let's hope that it'll be possible to will myself to achieve more in terms of academics and other aspects.

1) Get that IPPT
2) Marksmanship for the next year
3) Study well for my 'A's
4) Something else...haha

Watch this space.

8:24 PM
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This week is mostly being occupied by the OEMP test at Air Force School.Though boring and uninspiring at times,I've really learnt alot throughout the course.Hopefully the test results would be a good reflection of all the effort we've put into trying to stay awake during lessons.Its just lessons comprising of countless powerpoint slides containing details that doesn't make much sense to the human mind.

Received some advice which really jolted me back to reality.Maybe I should have been more proactive last year instead of adopting a passive attitude.Looks like it'll all depend on fate now.All I have are just memories left of what refuses to fade off into oblivion, and the denial of an opportunity to go back to the starting line.Just waiting and waiting forever for something which I couldn't let go.

12:52 AM
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This week is a pretty good week for me.Moved to our new bunk and managed to reserve one of the best beds.Its got everything I had wished for so its really only the slightest of deviation from what I had idealised.The TV at my bedside, makes it akin to sleeping beside a stadium cos everybody would crowd around my bed to watch soccer, which is fast becoming a bane in my life.

Life there is rather slack and uneventful.So everything seems to proceed at a leisurely pace, which is really detrimental to fitness levels.It really takes alot of discipline to maintain one's fitness with human tendencies surfacing to take the easy way out by just lying around doing nothing.I don't want to see everything that I had worked so hard to achieve come to nought.

I'm really grateful to God for helping me through an emotionally troubled week.Alleviating the strain imposed by guilt and remorse, and answering my prayer for guidance.This incident served a reminder not to take our loved ones for granted, treating every second like it may be the last.I've derived an answer to a problem but not its solution, until then I'm still as lost as ever.

9:06 PM
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This week was rather arduous compared to all the weeks in my course cos its finally sumex deployment, a fitting finale to wrap up an exhausting course.Had to wake up on monday morning at 3am to prepare the setting off procedures.Fortunately the deployment site was on a hilltop so the view really ease all the discomforts of heat rash and the physically demanding emplacement of equipments.

Its been raining almost throughout the whole duration that we spent there, providing ample opportunities to catch up on sleep at the back of the tonner.Remained in a half-dead demeanour throughout the outfield, with only 2 to 3 hours of sleep every night.That excludes the guard duties and working on equipments till 4am in the morning.All this under pitch-black conditions just adds to the frustrations.

Better go catch some sleep now...

9:45 AM
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I've finally gotten my ipod nano 4GB.Really slick.Really stylish.Really fragile.The first time I took it out of the box I was so scared of dropping it.Can't believe that after so much considerations I've finally gotten it after all.Dun feel like putting it down at all haha.I'm bringing it wherever I go.

Just finished sun-tanning and swimming at sentosa after our squadron day celebration which is something like a beach party.Most unfortunately,our trainee flight came in last in the overall standings cos there's a conspiracy to let the flight which we would be posted to win the events.Guess everybody knows which side their bread is buttered then.Swallowed quite a bit of very very salty sea water after being thrown into the waters,the only silver lining in the clouds being that I managed to drag a few ppl in as well.

Will be heading for Gotham Penthouse later.Hopefully everything will turn out well tonight.

1:51 AM
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