I just detest it when u get people nagging about why I'm not studying or constantly reminding me about the fact that I might do worse for my A levels.I know what I'm doing so just butt out of my life and quit whining to me to work when you're just faking your way through.Stop suppressing me with all that seniority crap I'm not buying any of it.If you can't do it on your own effort then stop pressurising me like you've been there and done that.

Maybe I'm getting pissed off with all the problems going on my family.Its not as simple as what meets the eyes and its going to just get worse over time.I'm just too tired to get involved anymore.

2:27 AM
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alright....my vocation wasn't as slack as i had previously thought.pretty tough actually by slacker standards.I'm gonna go outfield for training after all.And it ain't no 9 to 5 job so i'm cooped up in the airbase over the week.only that i'm allowed to go home this week before being posted to another air base.Hopefully I'll be assigned the larger missiles....its more slack after all.Got a rude awakening this morning when the guy standing next to me fainted and fell face first.When he turned around I saw his whole chin bone was exposed.Almost fainted but managed to get to the toilet to puke.Nice way to start the day....haiz

4:10 AM
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Leaving tekong behind for good.Slight consolations to cover up my fucked up results.Getting away from a group of fucked up hypocrites that seems to surround me in camp.Hopefully I'll get into the air force making everything simpler for me to handle.

Maybe it's because I tend to be easily frustrated under stress, had pretty alot of arguments with my platoon people.No I'm not being arrogant but its just that there's other problems surfacing in my mind that I remain oblivious to reality.Its not that I don't want to be a team player but its just that sometimes I prefer to stay away from everything.I can settle it by myself.

Going back to camp and hearing your buddy bemoan his misfortune at having only 4A and 2D makes it near impossible not to reach out and smack him.Being scolded by superiors just doesn't aid my apathetic attitude towards training.

8:43 PM
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