Darn! I'm enlisting for NS on 6 Jan...2 more months of freedom till judgement day in Tekong.Thinking back over the past 2 years I've really made alot of mistakes and changed alot in the process.Becoming more obstinate and unyielding compared to my VS days.Reflecting on the mistakes I made I've really regretted alot of them...How on earth could I ever strive for the clouds and yet overlook what was before my eyes?I don't know if there's a second chance but I've really got to resolve this before enlistment.Only one evening to resolve 2 years of mistakes...

Impossible...

11:37 PM
Confused

I'm not going to turn back...I don't give a damn anymore...It's no longer my responsibility...I can't wait for you forever.Its time to move on...Sorry but I have to resort to this approach.

So what if everything becomes fogged by my own personal materialistic thinking...I'm going for this win at all cost approach so its really impossible to settle for anything less than ideal.I deserve what I wanted,not someone else less worthy.I won't back down without a final attempt for a coup de grace.

12:28 PM
Confused

Enough is enough - you feel frustrated and rejected. You are fighting back and the going is tough. It would be just wonderful if you could be left in peace.

You are experiencing considerable difficulty trying to achieve your goals. As a consequence of this you are becoming more and more irritable. Your friends and acquaintances are finding it increasingly more difficult to appease or to reason with you. You are the cause of your own problems. Don't be so impulsive. It is your vacillation that can lead to problems and uncertainties. Ease up a little.

At times one is burdened with more than one's fair share of problems and this would appear to be your situation at present. But you are adamant - you know what you wish to achieve - and by giving a little and taking a little you may well find that the realization of your dreams could become a reality.

For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.

Perhaps in the distant past your trust and belief in your fellow man was misplaced and you can now no longer accept anything as it appears to be. You are untrusting and you insist that before you commit yourself to anything, you examine the pro's and con's with critical discrimination. The situation has now progressed to one where you are apt to disagree yet not make any form of constructive criticism to every suggestion that may be put to you. As a result you are in limbo. There is a saying that goes 'The past does not equal tomorrow'. Think about it - and let go.

10:16 AM
Confused